Like a kid who's just built a really cool model or a sweet Lego skyscraper, I'm usually a little stoked after I write a song. I wrote this one earlier this month and was enjoying playing it.....alone.....in my basement. I felt maybe lyrically it was a tad too sadly self-indulgent for public consumption. For me, the litmus test is how the song feels when I play it to an audience. There are times when a song I felt pretty good about in the afterglow of penning it, just doesn't fly when I play it live for the first time - falls out of my mouth like a hairball, hangs in the air like a bad smell, is just plain awkward. Well I played this one the other night at the accordion show and it felt good. More sweetly melancholic than sadly self-indulgent, enough humour to counter-balance the gloom. The minor/major semi-tone modulations in the melody, like the Tin Pan Alley dudes used to do, are like candy to me.
My friend and collaborator Rachelle Reath popped by this afternoon and I taught her the song. We worked out an arrangement, did two and a half takes, and laid it down. One aim of this exercise is to not get precious, let go, just do it, and that's what we did.
I met Rachelle a couple of years ago when she sang some backup harmonies on a recording I was working on and we have been playing together in one format or another since. She is a dedicated and gifted musician who brings a lot of joy to the act of making music and by extension, is a joy to play with. She is also a patient and talented music teacher - if you're in the Victoria/Sydney area looking for a great violin teacher, let me know, and I'll pass along your contact info!
My Heart & My Head
My heart pumps blood
through my scrambled veins
My heart is like a machine
and machines don't feel pain
My heart, my heart, my heart, my heart
and my head
My head is a vessel of bone
it contains my brain
my brain is like machine
and machines don't feel pain
Machines don't dream
they don't hope
or aspire
They just do their jobs
that's how they're wired
My head, my head, my head, my head
and my heart
My heart is not a metaphor
for courage, strength, or love
So please do not speak of these things
you know not what you speak of
My heart is a muscle
a muscle that is strong
If you write a song about a muscle
will anyone sing along
My heart, my heart, my heart, my heart
oh my heart
My heart, my heart, my heart, my heart
oh my heart